נובמבר 20, 2020

The day the birds stood still.

On may 28th of this year, while in the line of duty as a police officer in Virginia, I had the most traumatic experience of my life. I was involved in an officer involved shooting, or "gunfight", and my partner and I are okay thankfully. But that is all of the details that I wish to give in regards to the situation other than the following. There was a magic outside of the living hell I was in. Something so spectacular in realization that I can't not share it.

While there are bullets whizzing past me and complete and utter hell has broke loose, I came to a couple realizations.

  1. When you see muzzle flashes from a gun pointed at you, it feels like the bullets are coming directly at your eyes.
  2. No matter how big the barrel of a gun is in a normal situation when your life is on the line, when it is pointed at you and someone is trying to take your life, every barrel of a gun seems as if it were a cannon.
  3. The birds flinch, but stay still.

That third one surprisingly hit the heaviest for me. I realized that when people are put in this situation, we understand it, and we are terrified. This is the ultimate test of human spirit and survival, and one of the most deadly and traumatic things that we go through, and as far as birds are concerned, it's just sounds that make them flinch.

The birds just kept singing. I still clearly remember the chorus of American Robins just singing like they normally would. The Northern Mockingbird kept going bonkers on the streetlight, and the Carolina Wrens came closer to phish and warn other birds while they investigated the disturbance. Birds do not understand war, or gunfights, and they only understand their version of violence which comes down to scuffles with other birds, or being caught by a predator.

It made me think, what are we doing? We call ourselves "civilized". I guess George Carlin was right, "All we are is civilized savages with baseball hats and automatic weapons." We are really nothing civilized when compared to nature. But they say life continues on, and it does, and will and has for me. But there has not been a day since then I have not thought about what I went through, and I wonder if I will ever have a normal day. 2020 might just turn out to be the most ridiculous year. But I'm doing way better now, and what I went through has made me realize what is truly important. I am a better husband now, I walk a little slower, talk a little smoother, and have really let go of a lot of anger that would normally work me up into a tizzy.

פורסם ב נובמבר 20, 2020 01:20 אחה"צ על־ידי ruggedbynature ruggedbynature | 0 תגובות | הוספת תגובה

מרץ 13, 2020

The past 8 months

So the past 8 months, some of you may or may not have noticed that the amount of observations I usually posted has gone completely splat 0 in numbers. What I have been doing is becoming a police officer, which I now am. It’s been a crazy time in the academy, and I now get to go out to the road where I am having a lot of fun, helping a lot of people, and making my community safer. I also have the price ledge of seeing some of the most amazing human beings do some of the most extraordinary acts of heroism, and I have the saddest of luxuries that comes with this line of work as a first responder, in seeing the public in some of their darkest times of need, and trying to make their day, night, week, month, and sometimes years of despair a little better for just a moment. For the many moments of darkness I may have in my future career, there is going to be light at the end. See, the thing is, when it comes down to that darkness of the public, or the police getting hurt in the line of duty, if it comes down to the most tragic of events that a human can possibly do to other humans, the police will always be there to answer the call of darkness, and we will always win and bring justice to the situation, the sad tragic truth is, “what is the cost?”

So when it comes down to me and my other officer coming home every shift from dealing with almost every single issue the public needs our help with, the question after a good night or day’s sleep is, “what do I do now?” Some officers may choose to be physically active, some may pursue more academic and literature routes, but I choose to go into nature and forget it all. Especially with the help of this great online community called iNaturalist, I will be able to share and promote the beauty of nature with the amazing individuals of this community.

I thank each and every individual on this site for their love and lifestyle of nature. The thing you may be wondering is, “If ruggedbynature is a cop, and I am just an ordinary person, what can I possibly do to help in regards to people and their darkest times?” I say to you, I am just an ordinary person just like you, I only chose to pick up an extraordinary job, filled with extraordinary people. See, the thing most people don’t realize, is that nobody is truly and individual, nobody is truly special, but everyone collectively make each other extraordinary. We are like a colony of ants more then we are multiple prides of lions. Together we are great. So the only thing I ask of the public, is to give your everything in being you. Because we don’t do ethical extraordinary acts just because they are things to do, but because they make us feel good about ourselves. So quite literally, just be the best you, that you can be.

פורסם ב מרץ 13, 2020 03:12 אחה"צ על־ידי ruggedbynature ruggedbynature | 0 תגובות | הוספת תגובה

ינואר 12, 2017

Stuck inside!

I have been stuck inside the past couple of day due to the snow storm, my street even turned to ice the last day. But damn it's good to be back outside! Here's a couple observations before the snow melted.

Happy trails!

פורסם ב ינואר 12, 2017 12:58 אחה"צ על־ידי ruggedbynature ruggedbynature | 8 תצפיות | 0 תגובות | הוספת תגובה

דצמבר 25, 2016

Filling the digital void, with physical organisms.

I like computers, and certain technologies that allow us to use Geographic Information Systems for research, and analysis of urban, suburban, and rural areas that are natural areas where I can explore pockets of land that have not been thoroughly surveyed, or even a nice walkthrough for recording where people typically do not go. Filling in the gaps between local, state, and national parks, wildlife refuges, hunting grounds, and wildlife preserves is important to me. If we do not fill in these gaps with a good record of what is there and what will be lost due to land development, then natural land will keep becoming mowed down

פורסם ב דצמבר 25, 2016 06:02 אחה"צ על־ידי ruggedbynature ruggedbynature | 0 תגובות | הוספת תגובה

A little spiel, that may turn into something in the future.

As a user of iNaturalist I believe you may hold a position of power when it comes to local patches of wild land, which is very important for biodiversity, habitat for all organisms, and the survival of humans. I say the survival of humans because I do not believe we are a threat to the earth and nature at all. I do not fall for the act of saving endangered species either. Every single day, regardless of what humans do, whether good or bad, 25 species will go extinct. We did not kill them all off, but they just disappeared, for this is what nature does. Nature is a self healing organism, a perfect system of existence if you will. Every species is important yes, and they all do serve a purpose, but saving endangered species is just one more arrogant attempt for humans to control nature, which can not be done. If a bunch of random species go extinct, ecological chains of existence will be effected, but not destroyed, so the magic word here is "altered." What humans need to be doing is not thinking about the earth's biodiversity for saving the planet, no no no, what we need to be thinking of is saving ourselves! The earth is fine! The people are not! You have to be realistic here, every mass extinction has ended a golden empire, and throughout human history, every golden empire has come to an end. From the Gupta Empire of India, the Pax Romana of ancient Rome, the global prosperity of the United States after WWI and WWII, and eventually the self important species known as Homo sapiens sapiens, all shall end at the hand of their enemy, and we shall fall from nature, but nature is not our enemy, it is our beginning and it is our end, and how we treat it will be the telling of our future.

I will continue this later.

פורסם ב דצמבר 25, 2016 06:01 אחה"צ על־ידי ruggedbynature ruggedbynature | 4 תגובות | הוספת תגובה